The ability, staying power to continue on my current healing journey has been one long learning curve. I’ve learned to allow myself to relax. I’ve learned to trust myself to continue to choose well. I don’t have to be perfect only consistently moving forward. Growing into the ability to be consistently joyful knowing I deserve and am worthy of all the goodness. The need to sabotage my life is over. I can and will do this thing. I’m learning to embrace each day with all it brings. Slipping out of site behind all those layers of emotional padding is no longer where I want to be. I’m ready to take my place in the sun.
I’ve been on my current journey since the last week of August 2017, a little more than eighteen months. During the first six months I strictly water fasted three to five days each week, on the days I did consume food I kept my carbs intake to less than 15 carbs a day. The weight loss during the first six months was an amazing 140 pounds. As the weight dropped I was better able to move around but did not add any daily exercise program. Doing a strong exercise program while water fasting was beyond me at the time.
In February 2018, six months into my journey, the stress of water fasting was beginning to take an emotional toll. Food is such a big part of our lives, an enjoyable part. I missed eating. My water fasting was cut to 2 or 3 days a week which, of course, slowed my weight loss considerably. Eight months later my weight loss was at 200 pounds.
In February 2019 I began a daily exercise program. Using my treadmill to build endurance and muscle. I’ve been maintaining at 225 lbs. off since the first of the year. As of today I have decided to do a stronger program again, a push to reach my goal. Not sure where that will be yet but I feel this rest period is done. I want to be at or close to my goal by the time we take our cruise in October. I can do this!! So onward and downward.